On July 25th 2020 the unthinkable happened...I lost access to my personal Facebook account and all the business pages associated with it. Honestly it was a devastating blow to this project. I held out hope for many months that I could somehow get my account reactivated again and things would continue as normal, but no such luck was to be had. I tried everything to restore my account. I tried asking Facebook to review my situation but getting hold of an actual human at Facebook is next to impossible. I even tried writing them an actual letter. Even now, when I try to log in on my old account this is the message I see.
Suffice it to say, I've given up and I'm starting again from scratch, which honestly is a huge bummer.
One could ask why it's taken me so long to start back up again. Why not just make a new account and new business pages? Well, the answer is that I needed some time to grieve. I know it might sound silly, but I wasn't just ready to move on. It took me years to build what I had and even though I didn't have a massive following by any means, it was still significant, and every fan I gained mattered to me because I had reached them organically. Those of you who did follow me were super engaged and supportive. When I lost my Borg Queen Music page, I lost my community.
Let's fast forward to the present day. I'm done mourning and I'm ready to rise from the ashes of social media ruin. I've set up a new page that I hope if you're reading this you'll follow and share with anyone else who you think would be interested in what I do. I've missed my weird little community and sharing my creative journey with them. The connection I have with my audience is intensely personal because of the deeply personal nature of the content I make and the fact that it dealt with some very dark psychological themes. In many ways it was a safe haven for those of us who struggle with mental health issues to feel supported and not alone in our journey.
The prospect of starting over again is frightening. My fear played a huge role in my procrastination of getting going again on social media. I wondered if anyone would care that I'm back or even still be interested in what I do. Ultimately I came to the conclusion that this project has always been about creative expression and giving zero fucks, and if people like it, then great! If it makes me money, then it's a bonus. The bottom line is I miss sharing my creative journey with my people and that's what has given me the courage to rise from the ashes.
For a relevant Borg Queen song about starting over or overcoming an obstacle here's My Resurrection from the album Sex, Drugs & Shiny Brass Poles